10 Dynamic Moments: “Overwhelming Sensations”

Dynamic Moments are points in time when you make discoveries or when you come to conclusions or when you feel the beginnings of something greater than yourself.

During the month of December, I will be writing about 10 such moments.

Here is the sixth:

Overwhelming Sensations –

When I first discovered ABDL, it was online. I’ve mentioned this story before in postings. It was quite a while ago. The year was 1492 and along with Christopher Columbus discovering America, ABDL was an enormous discovery for me.

I sat in my father’s study at 3am on a Saturday morning. I was a junior in college and when a simple search yielded the result of an ABDL message board, I remember my heart started pounding so fast that I got dizzy while sitting down. I could see each individual thump on the front of my t-shirt.

Like so many others before me, up until that first moment of discovery, I thought I was only dingbat in this world who liked the ABDL thing. I didn’t even know the acronym ABDL existed.

But I can say, with absolute clarity of memory, that the thoughts and questions swirled around in my head. The physical reaction of shock and the sensations within me were quite overwhelming. And maybe the reason for that was because it had always been something that had been important to me. I just never believed that anyone would ever be accepting of it – and certainly not a partner of the future.

Fast forward ten years … DiaperSpace is up and running and is immensely popular. FetLife has just been launched and there are ABDLers surfacing all over the place. Suddenly, there is every reason to believe … in possibilities, in practicalities and in those overwhelming sensations.

Just meeting people was intense. Then the relationships. Then festivals and munches and conventions … oh my! A whole new world had opened up and I didn’t even need to find a genie in a lamp or ride a magic carpet.

And it has always been the sensation that remained with me … as friendships tightened and as some became distant, as some things ended and others began. There was always that sensation, overwhelming to say the least.

What does it feel like, you may ask? I suppose it’s different for everybody. And for a Daddy, it may be different from how a little would feel it. I guess the best way to describe it would be to focus on the adjective … overwhelming.

Inundating would be another word to describe it, when everything you feel and think and experience becomes so much more powerful and so much more important to you.

It isn’t just silliness. It’s super-silliness.
It isn’t just happiness. It’s super-happiness.
It isn’t just friendship. It’s best friendship.
It isn’t just love. It’s deep affection.

And because of those friendly meetings, those whispered conversations, those bonding secrets … those overwhelming sensations make for a need that is fulfilled. When someone or something is the provider or reason for a sense of personal completion, we tend to harbor them and their effect on us very closely in our hearts.

There are no absolutes. And that’s the beauty of it. I have yet to meet two ABDLers who see it and feel it and love it the same way. But the crux of this always seems to be similar or the very same. You now have people in your life that not only know the whole of what makes you who you are, but they are also the same themselves.

By sharing this, you give all of yourself to the overwhelming sensations and you put your heart into the friendships and relationships that now enrich your life.

Maybe the greatest reward I have ever felt was knowing that I gave “all I had” and in doing so, I was able to meet someone’s needs.

She was an angel … and she still is to me.