Category Archives: Of the Heart

Awaiting to Feel It All

Everything begins subtly and slowly, allowing those first moments of those first sentiments to be shared. It isn’t always words that are required, but rather just the ability to convey to someone that you have taken notice to them.

There are a whole lot of questions you’ll ask, a whole lot of experiences you’ll have and a whole lot of life you’ll live. Pray to God that you’ll face challenges together along the way because they’ll make you stronger with each success, but Pray to God that some of the time you fail together so you realize from that standpoint why you need each other and where real strength comes from.

And as you grow, do so together, helping each other along the way when a weakness is discovered. This will make clear to both of you why it is important to give just as much as you take.

When you arrive at the point where you love someone’s faults as much as you do their qualities, then you will have discovered something which could be everlasting.

Everyone has basic needs in life. Learn what their basic needs are, memorize them and commit them to your soul because they will look to you to fulfill those needs.

Give all that you can – be it time, energy, money, support, tears, laughter, a pair of arms to hold, passion, intensity, respect, devotion, a ride to the airport, a moving truck trip and a strong back, but be bold enough to ask the same in return.

Take time to talk, but also take time to listen. And at other moments in time, don’t say anything at all because the bonding of hearts and the connection of souls doesn’t always make sound.

Enjoy the journey. Don’t skip any steps. Fall in love and remember:

There are always – 
Dreams to be Dreamt,
Fairy Tales to be Told, 
“Happily Ever Afters” to be Pursued,
Memories to be Made,
That Constant Yearning to Find Completion,
The Greatest Passion Yet to be Found,
That Deepest Love Yet to be Discovered, That Perfect Story to be Written,
A LifeTime to be Spent Together
and the Opportunity
………………..Awaiting to Feel It All.

The Torture of “Not Knowing”

Has any one ever asked you how you knew you were an AB or a DL or a Daddy or a Mommy (or whatever applies)?

Below are links to a two-part video of a speech I gave at NELIcon 2011.

This isn’t a fantasy or bed time story. It’s for real and one of the most pivotal things that ever happened to me.

When I Was In 3rd Grade … Part One

There’s a moment in life when you learn who you will become. This story was my moment.

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When I Was In 3rd Grade … Part Two

Action isn’t as easy to take as it seems, but when faced with fight or flight, you learn who you are inside.

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Here’s the complete story in writing: When Someone Touches Your Heart

Something so Familiar

“So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we find the answers we seek, they soon become inevitable.” – Unknown

Words describe it, but nothing can express what a dream feels like in real life. You simply have to experience it to know.

The Daddy and BabyGirl dynamic takes every emotion, every ounce of love and life you share with one another in a relationship and adds an impassioned meaning to it all. It is natural for her to feel “little” and long to have her senses, her heart and her mind affected when you treat her with a kindness, love and tenderness that melts the soul of a BabyGirl instantly.

As you grow together, you find what sustains you in life – realizing what is important and what is less important, to both of you. You will change because of her. And if it was meant to be she’ll change, too, because of you. That’s when it ceases to be a Dream and becomes a Dream-Come-True.

There’s love which seems best for the moment. And there’s love which seems best for a lifetime. It’s a matter of figuring out which is best for you. You’re always looking for that person who is looking for you. Meeting someone who sees and pursues it as you do is where fate may well come into it. – unless you already have them – to cherish and be cherished by. Then the “lifetime” can begin.

If she excites and connects with you, seeks a bonding of hearts, to love and be loved, to share all her life with you, to trust and find fulfillment, has the littlest of hearts and the simplest of souls, is she the “reality” which includes your fantasy? Are you the “reality” which includes hers?

There’s a fine line between feeling something and knowing you can never feel it enough. There’s also a fine line between the next 30 days and the next 30 years. And that’s okay because not everything winds up being what you thought it was. You do live, learn and grow. It wouldn’t be healthy if you didn’t. Maybe there’s a reason for that and maybe that’s where fate comes into it again.

And you’ll be wiser for the future, to know to do it all again, to not be jaded and to lay your heart out again for someone, not because you didn’t learn before, but because you did learn. – She is worth it. – She is worth every bit of your heart and every bit of your love because she longs to receive the same thing you long to give … and what that specifically is will bond the two of you.

The past speaks volumes about people, but never defines who they are. It merely shows who they’ve been already and helps define who they’ll be in the future, the fantasy sought in the reality found. Either for now or forever, whichever the heart dreams for.

Your heart never loses what it feels and grows stronger for what it needs. And what it needs may arrive as someone you were not expecting, whether you met that person already or whether she is still a perfect stranger.

You smile and say hello, realizing there is something so familiar already.

What Good Things Do …

In what I write, I often use the phrases Dream Come True, Forever and a Day, Fairy Tale Ending, and of course, Happily Ever After.  What I write is fantasy and therefore can always be the perfect story that welcomes one of those phrases at its end.

Real life teaches us that it isn’t as simple as: “Meet, Fall in Love, Kiss, Roll End Credits”.  And the people we gain and lose in our lives sometimes make us numb to continuing our search for the soul mate we believed to have been found.

I once received a friend request on FetLife from someone who had a quote in her profile I had never read before.  It said:

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together.” – Marilyn Monroe

In an instant, unexpectedly and perhaps even unintentionally, what you believed to be the truth can change.  And if you’ve felt the sting of vindication, you know what I mean by truly feeling numb.

But the numbness goes away after a while and your head resurfaces above the water.  You’ll still be the wonderful person you were before, but you’ll have been made wiser for the future.

So, I present to you a story ( a short one ) that I wish I could claim ownership of.  It tells a sweet tale about what someone’s heart can feel and how words can sometimes be perceived to mean two different things.

I posted this story before, but I don’t think I could post it in enough places.  And though it doesn’t drive at any ageplay or “Daddy’s Girl Fetish”, I believe it captures the root of the Daddy/BabyGirl dynamic very well.

Beautiful Needs

 A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty.
He said no.

She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave him, would he cry?
He said no.

She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face, he grabbed her arm and said:

You’re not pretty. You’re Beautiful.
I don’t want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever.
And I wouldn’t cry if you walked away, I’d die.

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The “Daddy” – tude

We are attracted to people who we can relate to and with whom we find the right things in common.  We look for an ease of communication and a chemistry that connects us in ways that we can’t with others.  This is what leads to that bonding of hearts and a connection of souls.  Then comes the ability to be so comfortable with each other that we let down our personal guards and reveal those pieces of the puzzle that make us who we are, but only after we have found trust.

It’s a journey that seeks a foundation from which to build off of, a structure to hold everything inside it that we choose to fill it with … and a roof that never lets anything escape us – even if we find our heads and our hearts in the clouds from time-to-time.

The dynamic we subscribe to in an age play relationship takes the usual method and does it one better by intensifying the emotions that can erupt from within us.  It is this intensity that turns our wants into our needs, our longings into our yearnings, our interests into our passions and our affections into the depths of love we embrace about our significant other.

I’ve had vanilla relationships in my life, before I finally understood and listened to what my heart had been telling me all along.  And those vanilla relationships were wonderful.  But it was the age play relationships which included that “dynamic” that intensified the emotions and those were the girlfriends I got to know on a level far deeper than anything vanilla.

So what’s a “Daddy”-tude? It’s many different things to many different people.

As a Daddy, you don’t just want the BabyGirl you love. You need her. You are strong where she is weak and weak where she is strong. You crave the responsibility of protecting her and may often find yourself wanting to know exactly where she is – not because you’re obsessed, but because as a Daddy you need to know she is alright. The instinct makes him want to protect and need to do so.

She is his best friend and the foremost thought on his mind. She is the passion which drives his actions, for the short-term but also for the long-term. She may not always see the long-term as clearly as he does and vice versa for the goals she sees.

Thoughts of her lead to actions and maybe it’s because thoughts of her create images of her that burn dreams of her into a Daddy’s mind. Continue reading …

What to Remember at the Onset …

At the onset of any journey in life, the future seems wide open, filled with possibilities for each moment and every step of the way.  You wonder where your destination will take you.

When love is new, your dreams become brighter and your wishes expand to meet the horizons now in view.

Everything begins subtly and slowly, allowing those first moments of those first sentiments to be shared.  It isn’t always words that are required, but rather just the ability to convey to someone that you have taken notice to them.

There are a whole lot of questions you’ll ask, a whole lot of experiences you’ll have and a whole lot of life you’ll live. 

Pray to God that you’ll face challenges together along the way because they’ll make you stronger with each success, but Pray to God that some of the time you fail together so you realize from that standpoint why you need each other and where real strength comes from.

And as you grow, do so together, helping each other along the way when a weakness is discovered.  This will make clear to both of you why it is important to give just as much as you take.

When someone becomes drained, re-energize them – because without that opportunity to get back what just poured out of them, they feel empty.  Recognize that selflessness, while noble, is also extremely taxing.  So don’t ever forget to appreciate when someone does all they can for you.

When you arrive at the point where you love someone’s faults as much as you do their qualities, then you will have discovered something which could be everlasting.

Everyone has basic needs in life.  Learn what their basic needs are, memorize them and commit them to your soul because they will look to you to fulfill those needs.

Give all that you can – be it time, energy, money, support, tears, laughter, a pair of arms to hold, passion, intensity, respect, devotion, a ride to the airport, a moving truck trip and a strong back, but be bold enough to ask the same in return.

Take time to talk, but also take time to listen.  And at other moments in time, don’t say anything at all because the bonding of hearts and the connection of souls doesn’t always make sound.

Enjoy the journey.  Don’t skip any steps.  Fall in love and remember:

There are always Dreams to be Dreamt, Fairy Tales to be Told, Happily Ever Afters to be Pursued, Memories to be Made, that Perfect Story to be Written, that Deepest Love Yet to be Discovered, a Lifetime to be spent together, and the Opportunity – Awaiting to Feel It All.

The Birth of a Heartbeat and the Discoveries to Follow

There are so many influences behind the dynamic between a Daddy and a BabyGirl. And those influences will be different for every couple, making them unique from all others.

Part of where a Daddy’s Adoration and a BabyGirl’s Giddiness comes from is the connection that the two individuals have. It’s a bonding of their hearts which produces every emotion, every sensation and every reaction. That’s when you know you’ve found what you were looking for and more importantly, who you were looking for.

And it all begins with one single, solitary flash in her mind, that, as a Daddy, transforms you and gives you a new sense of purpose which will remain with you for the rest of your life …

That’s the Birth of a Heartbeat and the Discoveries which Follow.

It’s a wonderful moment and one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed in my life. I will never forget it and would never want to.  It is nothing shy of the very beginning of a lifetime spent loving someone.

But not just anyone.  Rather, the girl you met who chose to follow her heart and become the BabyGirl you could see within her all along.

That initial instant when her mind crosses the barrier of fantasy and accepts that her dream is now reality.

But it’s not really the stuff that dreams are made of or that perfect fairy tale ending. That sort of thing takes time and work and two souls that want the same thing. It’s far simpler than all of that … It’s just the beginning.

She lies before you in a t-shirt and the diaper you just put her in.  The pacifier between her lips is being feverishly nibbled as she attempts to sort out the plethora of thoughts and sensations filling her mind and her senses.

She is now a BabyGirl.  And she’s never felt that littleness before because of someone. She certainly thought about it, but now she feels it and it’s more intense than she had imagined.

Somewhere in the realm of littleness, obvious for the flushed and blushing color of her face, there exists a hope that she will be made to feel the same degree of safety to she just relinquished by opening her soul and allowing the secret desires of a little girl’s heart to make her vulnerable.

Her eyes light up for the first time with a gaze of defenseless surrender. Her irises dance with an excitement she doesn’t yet know what to do with, but for this moment she finds contentment in simply being mesmerized by the prevailing beating of her heart.

Perhaps it’s brought on by a surrounding that makes her comfortable to be little. Perhaps it’s her outfit or the diaper or the pacifier or the bottle. Maybe it’s all of that or none of it.

Maybe it’s the way she has been spoken to, treated, regarded and cared for by her new Daddy.

Whatever the reason was, she is consumed by overwhelming feelings which have married together the innocence of her soul’s desire and the passions of her mind. What this means is: every piece of her has been affected by a dynamic and a fantasy she only ever hoped would be more than a castle in the sky some day.

The Pursuit of “Picture Perfect”

We all have “dream scenarios”. Some of them we perfect, in our minds.  This is one of those perfect dream scenarios of mine.

I’ve made several attempts at putting this dream scenario into story form, but I just haven’t written it perfectly yet.

But I see this picture and envision the whole story.

The right words will come to me to write it perfectly some day.  And I will take her there, regardless of whether her name is Lily, Mia, Rose, Penny or whomever. 

It will be perfect.

The Restoration of Fairy Tales

The Complexity of Belief and the Unlikeliest of Unities

One of the greatest inventions of all time, perhaps even greater than the automobile or the television or the computer, has been the fairy tale.  It gives us something to dream about, something to think about, something to write about and something to trust in. 

No device is needed to bring a fairy tale to life in our minds, just our imaginations and our fantasies … and maybe a little belief.

But belief can be a tricky thing.  It can create turmoil when we discover that others don’t quite see it the way we do.

Continue Reading …

Memories from FetFest: When a Stranger Knows You and Camping which is just … Awesome. ;)

Labor Day Weekend 2011 did not include the usual gathering of friends and family on a back deck for a picnic and a backyard for volleyball. It included the gathering of hundreds of people in a backyard where the games were a little more involved than volleyball and a whole hell of a lot more fun.

These are my semi-clear remembrances of the 38 Guinnesses, the Events, the Chance Meetings, the opening of avenues I never knew existed and the weekend which was … FetFest 2011.

Her name was April and thank god she was wearing a nametag because if she hadn’t been wearing it, I would’ve known nothing about her other than that she was the perfect pheromone height for me, but I’ll explain that some other time.

Perhaps I ought to start at the beginning … Continue reading …

At the Core of Innocence: Part Two of Two – Enter the Daddy

Innocence isn’t so much about pretending.  It’s about being.  A little not only wants to be innocent but she wants to be seen as innocent and treated in the specific like of the moment.

And a Daddy instinctively protects that innocence.  The Chivalry of his soul demands it … as well it should.

Enter the Daddy …

Maybe the best way to encompass what a Daddy is and what it means to be a Daddy is to make a simple pros and cons list.  Or perhaps better yet, simply accept a few thoughts:

A Daddy isn’t perfect and he isn’t a mind reader.

But The Core of Innocence doesn’t focus on what a Daddy can’t do.  The simple fact is that everyone has things they can’t do.  A Daddy is no different, in that regard, than anyone else. 

It’s about the things he does which others don’t do.

A Daddy touches places in her heart that have never been touched before, and creates a depth of connection she has never reached before with anyone.  And he does this by addressing a side of a BabyGirl which needs to be handled with care.  It is this attention to her care which really tells her what she needs to know about who he is and who he will become with time and with their experiences in life.

The Definition of ALTRUISM is an unselfish regard for or devotion to the welfare of others.

This isn’t to say that a Daddy is unselfish.  It’s to say that he pursues her comfort and her well-being passionately.

And this pursuit gives him pride.  He will hold her in his arms and perhaps no words will be spoken, but if she holds him in her heart and if she longs for the kind of love he possesses and offers, she will hear the message loud and clear.

In his eyes, in his touch, in his actions, in his sentiments and in his arms,  her heart will hear him saying:

“BabyGirl, Daddy ain’t gonna let nothin’ hurt you.  And Daddy will keep you right here, where you are secure in being insecure, where you are safe to be vulnerable and  where you are free to be who you are.”

A Daddy loves and protects all that he can for her, not the least of which being the core of innocence within her soul.

 

Enter the Daddy …

At the Core of Innocence: Part One of Two – A BabyGirl’s Heart

ABDL means many different things to each of us.  And it may be the case that you will only ever find one person who sees it the same as you do.  Perhaps the two of you rediscover what it means together.

So many things can be factored in the specific flavor of ABDL which leaves the best taste in your mind and your senses.  But perhaps the one thing that is a little more universal than not is the core of innocence.

Innocence isn’t so much about pretending.  It’s about being.  A little not only wants to be innocent but she wants to be seen as innocent and treated in the specific like of the moment.

And a Daddy instinctively protects that innocence.  The Chivalry of his soul demands it … as well it should.

When people ask me to explain the ABDL thing, they always preface it by saying: “I understand the age play end of it, but the whole diaper and bottle thing I just don’t get.”

And I offer up to them the idea of a kind of attention I term as “white hot”.

When a flame burns hot enough, its orangish color will disappear, leaving a white flame. This is indicative of a temperature which is much hotter than normal and more intense all around.

It’s a similar comparison to the kind of attention an ABDL girl receives.  But it’s this kind of attention she either – 1. received when she was a little girl   or   2. wished she could have received as a little girl.

In her eyes, you will be able to see which is the truth.

As a little girl, a female is lavished with toys and clothing and the opportunities to have fun and be silly and be happy.  And the people who love her and take care of her ask nothing from her at all, just to see that she’s happy and that she knows they love her.

Or, as a little girl, a female always dreamed of being lavished as such.

Either way, it speaks of innocence.

As an adult female, attention is still a way of life for her, but the attention she now receives comes with expectations and sometimes people do want things from her.

How does this factor into diapers and bottles and innocence?  Well … individually, I suppose it doesn’t.  But looking at it like that is nothing new.  Lots of people view “ABDL” and “The Age Play Dynamic of Love” in pieces, sort of out of context, don’t they?

But just as a little girl doesn’t need the toys and the clothing to feel that innocence, an ABDL girl doesn’t need the diapers and the bottles to feel it either … but it adds to it.

And it’s the innocence of that mindset which is at the core of what makes that re-found “white hot” attention so appealing.

Granted, there are many things that make it appealing, but the idea of innocence is one that most people say goodbye to without a decision in the matter or never actually received.

In discussion recently with a friend about the importance of innocence in life, he said: “When innocence is lost, it’s usually lost for good.”

Imagine the opportunity to get it back or the opportunity to experience it for the first time, never having to say goodbye to it.

This is what puts innocence at the core of a BabyGirl’s heart.

This also leads to the idea of the protection of that innocence …

Enter the Daddy.

What Her Heart Embraces and Why

It was when she had finally been stripped of everything that she first experienced what “vulnerable” felt like, both physically and emotionally.

But in that initial moment of vulnerability something wonderful happened. He placed a diaper around her waist and fastened it into place. But she didn’t feel silly. She felt “little” for the first time.

Her heart began to beat as fast as the butterflies that fluttered their waltz in her tummy. Her shoulders shrunk up and she wrapped her arms around herself in an effort to find the modesty she knew so well.

But everything was different now and she no longer felt vulnerable as she felt lost, helpless and in need of a protection she couldn’t describe, yet faintly remembered having felt long ago.

He wrapped his arms around her and said: “It’s okay. Daddy is here and Daddy will keep you safe. You will always be safe and you will always be loved because you are my BabyGirl.”

And then she understood what “little” meant and what it felt like.  She opened her heart and embraced it.

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25 “Dream Makers”

It’s just simply uncanny. A good smile early.

Daily Horoscope: October 18, 2011

You’re ready to let the world know how you’re feeling, no matter who’s there or what their particular opinion might be. Great. Don’t let that change, no matter who shows up — or what they’re wearing.

  

Sometimes writing so much about the dynamic of age play will make my mind jump right back to it when I’m doing something else. 

Nevertheless, it made for an unexpected smile, first thing this morning.

– Zorro Daddy

The Unknown Zodiac

The things you keep in your heart are the ways you make each other feel, how time seems to tick by a little more slowly when in each other’s arms, how her quirks can bring a smile to your face when you think about them later on, how (without even trying) you fall in love with her faults just as much as her qualities, and how the journey you take together will be just as rewarding as the destination you arrive at together.

There will be mornings that feel like Christmas morning, but that won’t be every day. And you won’t want it to be every day because the truest of tests come from the moments when you struggle and find a way to overcome the obstacles placed before you.

She’ll blow you a kiss as you leave.  You’ll catch it and put it in the pocket of your button down shirt.

She’ll embrace you as you return, running up to you and into your waiting arms. 

You’ll kiss her forehead when you can’t put to words how much you love her.

You’ll cradle her in your arms all night just so you can be closer to her.  

She Dreams Big About Being Little.  But whether she’s big or little, she’ll always be your BabyGirl.

It is that bond between a Daddy and a BabyGirl, everlasting and ever-growing, which becomes written in the stars.

A Dynamic Unlike Any Other

There is no thought more rewarding than knowing you love someone so deeply that you give her everything your heart can offer her.

And seeing her receive that love and then return it back to you, melts your soul.  Because it makes three things very clear:

– You both understand that when two people give, no one has to take.

– What you have to offer her meets her needs.

– You mean as much to her as she means to you.

In the midst of a dynamic unlike any other, it’s that connection and that very instant when her eyes tell you that you just touched a place so deep within her that she knows you are more than good enough.

You won’t be perfect for her and she won’t be perfect for you, but you’ll both be perfectly flawed for each other.

Security and the Big “3”

Security and that sense of feeling safe and protected is something that a BabyGirl seeks just as much as that sense of feeling loved like no other.  Perhaps those two senses go hand in hand for her, as well they should for her to be able to open her heart and the wishes there within.

It is within those wishes, those yearnings that you will see what a BabyGirl is made of and truly all about.  It is within her heart you will find what she truly loves, what she wants in life, and the type of BabyGirl she wants to be. 

Feeling safe is one of the greatest feelings in the world.  Being made to feel safe by someone else is a feeling so great it is beyond any other.  For a Daddy, a BabyGirl who smiles because of him is someone he comes to need just as much.

When I say “The Big 3”, I am talking about the pacifier, the blanket, and the teddy bear.  The three most common items that can bring a Babygirl that sense of safety, security, and warmth (aside from the diaper, of course). 

Every BabyGirl loves one of them, if not all three.  It’s these items that serve to help and remind a girl that she is protected, even when her Daddy is not around.  Wanting to live a life where she is cradled, hugged, played with, and made to feel wonderful inside when she not only wants it but needs it most….that is a testament to her heart’s wishes.

When her heart goes from using phrases like “interested in”, “exploring” and “curious about” to feeling the emotions of words and phrases like “want”, “desire”, “long for”, “need”, “cry out”, “ache for”, and “crave”, it is then that she begins to discover what her heart is all about and what is within it.

Any Daddy who lives for the sight of her smiling face, and the warmth of fulfilling her wishes, will remember what her heart seeks by looking at what his heart seeks as well.

When she curls up on your lap and begins to get comfortable, it is then that you complete the trio. 

First her favorite blanket – which could be anything.  After all, it’s her security and only she will know what brings it to her.  Whether she is simply draped in it or swaddled from head to toe, the blanket brings her physical warmth which matches up with the warmth you have placed inside her heart, her mind and her soul.

Then her pacifier, contrasting those beautiful eyes and immediately sending her mind down the path of comfort.  She becomes timid and within her irises, you see directly into the center of who she is.  She opens herself to you as she finds the security to do so.

Finally, you produce her teddy bear from behind your back.  And if you have touched her heart, if you have found a way into her soul, maybe her eyes will say:  “You Remembered!” as an honest smile forms behind her pacifier, warming the color of her face.  (And that is something beautiful, AB related or not. When a girl’s face finds a happiness it didn’t have a moment ago, a guy is taken back by it.)

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How she holds her “Big Three”… the pacifier in her lips, the blanket and teddy bear – snuggled to her face and body, tell you they make her feel good, and feel safe.  Then she cradles up to you, snuggly to your body … you make her feel good, and feel safe as well.  She closes her eyes and drifts to sleep in your arms and the cradle of your lap.   

Security, at last.

The Essence of a BabyGirl: The Straight, The Curly and The Un-Ugly

What is it about a BabyGirl which makes her precious in a Daddy’s eyes?  What is it about her that awards her our everlasting love and a place in her Daddy’s heart which she winds up owning anyway?

It probably can’t be put into simple words or a list or a string of posts, but – by golly – I’m gonna try.

This may take a while. 

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A BabyGirl is possessed of one kind of mind.  There’s so much about her which melts you, mends you, needs you, controls you and only ever asks for you to love her.

From her head to her toes and from the outside to the inside, every blessed inch of her, every movement, every expression and every thought which comes through in her personality makes clear so much of what becomes her essence and effect.

So let’s begin with the top of her head.

Or more descriptively … her hair.

So what is it which makes a BabyGirl decide to shed the pigtails for the day?  Hair has always been a signal sender for a girl.  So what signal does a BabyGirl send when she doesn’t go with pigtails?

Curly Hair – Curly can often indicate insecurity or uncertainty, as if she can’t quite find the comfort she craves.  But it can also be a cry for attention or an indication of how little she feels.  And by making her hair more noticeable, she will often achieve receiving that attention.

Certainly to not forget to mention that some girls have naturally curly hair, the belief that curly hair equals “need” may only be stereotypical, but the question is:  How many times does that stereotype apply?

 

Straight Hair –  Straight can indicate “put together”, “in search of nothing” or “content with happiness”.  It’s also the easiest hairstyle for a Daddy to run his hands through, obviously.  On these days, order rules the way.  Not imposing order or being strict.  Just simply going about your day with the knowledge that order is all ready there.  It is on these days that she will be one step ahead of you every bit of the way.  She knows what she wants and she knows what she needs and she knows what she’s going to get.

Straight hair is an indication that she accepts her role with no hesitation or delay.  And it isn’t because she is making concessions or because she is withholding her feelings or emotions.  It’s simply because she can look herself in the mirror and say “I am his BabyGirl and that makes me very happy.”

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Be it understood and never forgotten:  There is no such thing as a bad hairstyle or a hairstyle which indicates inadequacy of a girl, but if we take the time to match up their moods and behavior with the decision they made that morning while standing in front of the mirror, we just might be able discover what they need before they even know it themselves.

The Essence of a BabyGirl: To “Tail” or Not to “Tail”

What is it about a BabyGirl which makes her precious in a Daddy’s eyes?  What is it about her that awards her our everlasting love and a place in her Daddy’s heart which she winds up owning anyway?

It probably can’t be put into simple words or a list or a string of posts, but – by golly – I’m gonna try.

This may take a while. 

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A BabyGirl is possessed of one kind of mind.  There’s so much about her which melts you, mends you, needs you, controls you and only ever asks for you to love her.

From her head to her toes and from the outside to the inside, every blessed inch of her, every movement, every expression and every thought which comes through in her personality makes clear so much of what becomes her essence and effect.

So let’s begin with the top of her head.

Or more descriptively … her hair.

Pigtails – When you see a BabyGirl in pigtails (or any female for that matter), what words come to mind?

Beautiful?  Adorable?  Cute?  Fun?  Cuddly?

Perhaps all of those apply.  For as much as a BabyGirl (or any female for that matter) loves having options and choices, though she doesn’t always like to make decisions about the choices, pigtails take on a few forms.  Here are the basic ones:

The “High” Pigtail – Drawn to the top of the back of her head, a BabyGirl will often find a bounce to her step.  No, not because of her high pigtails, but it’s on those days when high pigtails are her hairstyle of choice that you will find her in a mood that is playful and not interested in formal plans or trips or anything organized.  The higher the pigtail, the more she wants to enjoy the moment as it happens rather than planning it out.

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The “Low” Pigtail – Drawn down towards the back of her neck and sometimes onto the sides of her head, a BabyGirl will be looking for direction and organized adventures.  She knows that when out-n-about, there will be attention drawn to her anyway and a low pigtail will, for whatever reason, make the watcher automatically wander who she is with.

No, low pigtails are not indications of ownership of her, but they are indications of ownership of her heart.

The Braided Pigtails – Drawn to from the side of her head and braided, a BabyGirl is in a mood of clarity where she has a precise goal in mind and has weaved a plan with her mind as to how to achieve the goal, much like the weaving of her braided pigtails.  It is on these days that she will have focus and direction and just needs to be steered a little along the way.

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Pigtails are nothing uncommon.  Hollywood uses them all the time.  The reasoning for each kind of pigtail was merely my opinion and doesn’t always apply, but do you recognize any of these pigtailed cuties?

 

 

Be it understood and never forgotten:  There is no such thing as a bad hairstyle or a hairstyle which indicates inadequacy of a girl, but if we take the time to match up their moods and behavior with the decision they made that morning while standing in front of the mirror, we just might be able discover what they need before they even know it themselves.

The Enigma of the Ivories and the Strings

I play the guitar and the piano – but not at the same time.  (My toes tend to cramp up when I try. 😉 )

I was forced (and I mean “forced”) to take piano lessons in 1st grade by my mother and would take those lessons for ten years until my high school activities became too numerous to schedule piano lessons anymore.  For the next two years I would  glare evilly at the piano as I walked past it. 

Then in 12th grade, I heard a song on the radio.  It was “November Rain” by Guns ‘N Roses.  It has this amazing opening piano solo.  I feel in love with it instantly, raced up to Don Randalls Music Store, bought the sheet music and would spend the next few weeks driving my family crazy as I played that song over and over (even into the wee hours of the morning) until I memorized it.

I became so obsessed with learning that song, that I would practice it with my eyes closed and once tried playing it with the lights out in the room.   Needless-to-say, I learned I can’t play it like that, but I certainly tried.  🙂

From that point forward, I began playing the piano again and haven’t stopped since.

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The guitar I picked up my freshman year of college at Temple University, again being enticed to play an instrument because of a Guns ‘N Roses song.  This time, it was “Don’t Cry“, from the same album as November Rain.

Temple was a bit of a culture shock for me and when too shocked to do anything else, I sat in my dorm room and taught myself to play the guitar.

Throughout college, I wrote 100 songs – about 40 of which were about a girl I fell in love with and for three and a half years was too much of a chicken to say anything to.  So instead, I wrote her 40 songs.  The next to last day of our senior year, I mustered up the courage to tell her how I felt about her.

Then I played her the first and last songs I wrote about her:

Can’t Get Close Enough   and   The Way That I Do

It was a wonderful feeling to take her breath away, even if just once … but maybe I did it twice.

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I had practiced the piano for years and knew it like the back of my hand, but didn’t want to play anymore until something caught my eye and re-ignited my interest.

I knew nothing about the guitar.  It was a total mystery to me, but I wanted to learn it badly and I taught myself how to play it.

The difference was:

For the piano, I was given lessons.  For the guitar, I made my own lessons up.

What lessons did I really learn from the Ivories and the Strings?

“Sometimes the things you want come from the things you know.”?

It would be easy to add that: “The successes you will find will be learned along the way as you journey to reach them.”  Sort of  ‘been there, done that, much wiser now’.

But ultimately, you realize that what you pushed away in order to go after the enigma will be waiting for you when you return. 

And they just might want to hear you play “November Rain” and Don’t Cry”.

That, in itself, might be the real enigma: Which One To Play  …  And Why.

The 5 Points of Connection

The 1st Point of Connection

“Hold my Hand”

Fingers interlocking, palms touching, arms stretched out as you walk along the wooded path, arms held tightly together for a closer, more intimate walk. In the mall, at the grocery store, at home on the couch, at the movies, in the park, at the party, at the toy store and wherever else you hold hands, you are sharing a point of contact where a connection is felt.

The holding of hands is a way of communicating to everyone around (as well as to the two of you) about a sentiment that is shared, a commitment that is made and an emotion which is mutual. For a Daddy and BabyGirl, hand holding can share so many feelings between them and convey so many messages to her.

Merely having her hand held inside his can show possession of her and that he is keeping track of where she is. This can produce those little feelings inside which she adores and craves, almost as if she would state (if she were feeling brave):

“This is my Daddy and I am his BabyGirl and we want everyone to know we are together because he loves me and I love him. And what we have is more important than anything else – each other, our hearts and our lives.”

But hand holding needn’t always be so serious.

For example, the squeezing game when he squeezes her hand and she squeezes back and they keep sending the pulse back and forth.

Or the times when a little impromptu dancing is called for, whether walking on the beach, or walking through the woods, or just simply when the mood strikes – wherever they are.

And of course, the only proper way for a BabyGirl to dance with her Daddy is to be standing on his toes and to be holding his hands.

And all of these connections, all of these experiences and instant memories await their beginning at your fingertips when he says:

“BabyGirl, hold my hand.”

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The 2nd Point of Connection

The Sentiment of a Kiss

Whether softly or aggressively and no matter where it’s placed, a kiss will share an emotion in an instant. It speaks without saying a word and can send heart beats to a galloping pace. Between a Daddy and a BabyGirl, a kiss will encompass the senses and the mind.

She closes her eyes as his lips touch her forehead – a sentiment of love that greets her many times throughout the day. And it speaks to her differently each time, saying: “Good Morning”, “Good Night”, “Have a good nap”, “Sleep Well”, “I love you”, “I need you”, “I want you”.

It tells her that she truly is cherished, loved and adored for how precious she is and who she is and what she means to him.

But there are other kinds of kisses: on the top of the head during a hug, on the tip of her nose as she sits in the tub – (that wasn’t meant to rhyme. :) ) But no matter where she feels it on her body, she always feels it in her heart – for every kiss tells her she has been a good girl.

And then there’s the kiss where one set of lips meets another. And for a Daddy and BabyGirl, this kiss pulls something from every corner of the every emotion, bringing it to the surface.

Breathing deepens as they wrap their arms around each other, heart beats begin to race faster still, passion increases, and the want – need – desire – longing and ache of every outcome is felt.

A pair of lips, placed at the right moment will connect two people together in ways so numerous that their entire selves are affected. And it all begins when she closes her eyes and feels his lips with The Sentiment of a Kiss.

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The 3rd Point of Connection

In These Arms

When arms are opened to you, a heart is opened to you. And the power of a hug can take any situation and make it better. It can take any difficulty and simplify it. It can take the good and make it great. It’s a connection that, just like the holding of hands and the sentiment of a kiss, can bond two people together, speaking of affection without saying a word.

Whether it’s the first action of greeting after having been apart or the last thing you do before saying goodbye, it’s a moment when you share a piece of your soul. Whether it’s done at random moments for random reasons or whether it’s done to help you through your emotions, your tears. Whether it’s done to say “Thank You” or “I Love You” or “I’m Here for You”, a hug is the perfect mixture of connection from contact and emotion.

For a Daddy and a BabyGirl, an embrace that wraps their bodies together envelopes what they mean to each other as much as his arms do around her frame.

And within his space, she feels a protection, both physical and psychological that will enable her to place her head on his chest and close her eyes, feeling the warmth from his body, listening to the rhythmic beating of his heart and taking in his scent.

Even thought the evils of the world may be right behind her, she is unafraid because those things behind her are in her past. That’s why she faces away from them. All that matters is what is in front of her and what loves her and what protects her.

Whether it’s a slow hug, rocking back and forth or whether it’s an excited hug as she wraps her arms around his neck like a little girl, there is a safety and security expressed, felt and realized in a hug. It is that hug and being as close to him as possible that makes it a point of connection … “In these arms”.

 
 
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The 4th Point of Connection

The Power of Being Cradle

She lies there, resting her frame peacefully inside the human cradle of his arms and his lap. She looks up at him. He gazes down at her. Their eye contact is unbroken, and the connection between them grows. He traces her eyebrows with his fingertips, taps the tip of her nose and her chin. Her body continues to relax as her mind is occupied by the attention she is receiving. He brushes the hair off her forehead and pats her bottom, but we’ll get into the “patting” a bit later. This connection is about the power of being cradled.

Silent Communication, once again, speaks to both of them. But for the BabyGirl, her position is also affecting her thoughts. From head to toe, she is encompassed by a sense of being controlled which is nurturing. The very position of her body is telling her to submit and she allows this transformation of power to take place with no dispute.

Surrounded by her Daddy and placed where he wants her to be, her attention is directed where he wants it to go … up to him. She remains there, in that submissive position for as long as he wants her to be there and she couldn’t be happier. It is that helpless feeling which makes her feel little.

Her feet are off the ground. Her legs aren’t being used. And when this happens, her mind undergoes a pleasant change. And with the establishment of trust, she willingly gives up control of herself. The thought of being that helpless, yet that safe is intoxicating.

Her mind is being engaged in the emotions she sees in his eyes. Without volition, she accepts any number of tasks – from a bottle feeding to a spoon feeding to a pacifier to funny face games to tickling to sleeping to napping to simply lying there in his company – all of which existing in his control and care. And this is the reason she accepts them. She too is under his control and care.

The attention – filling her mind with thoughts of acceptance, the submissive and nurturing position – softening her free will, the emotions – heightening her happiness to accept her place … all are experienced in The Power of Being Cradled.

 
 
 
 
 
 
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The 5th Point of Connection

“The Pat”

“The Pat” comes in many forms, for a plethora of different reasons. But each shares one thing in common: Its ability to alter her mindset, mood and disposition in an instant. This is another connection which has the ability to bond two souls together. It isn’t verbal, but, like the others, communicates so much where words fail.

Patting her bottom may well be most commonly used to tell her she has been a “Good Girl”. A Daddy doesn’t have to say those words for her to hear them in her head. And for a BabyGirl, when her bottom is patted, her diaper is patted as well. This is the stuff which not only makes her feel little, but reminds her how little she is.

But a pat can come in a swifter, more direct form. It corrects her behavior and though her bottom is diapered to prevent the sting, what it does to her mind has a lasting effect. She feels little, but in a way which makes her think twice about her actions. It is sudden and exacting. And her mind processes the information in the same fashion.

The pat can also tell her to hurry up and stop lollygagging. It can bring her comfort, knowing he is right behind her. It can bring her reassurance, knowing that though she isn’t in his arms or holding his hand or in the midst of a passionate kiss or enveloped in his cradling lap – he still loves her and it serves as yet another way to tell her what she means to him and the importance she has in his life.

The pat can have a more practical purpose than just the expression of sentiments and emotions. It can be done to check her diaper – yet another way to make her feel little and to re-enforce just how little she will always be in his heart and his soul, perhaps even more intense in its arrival when in public.

There are many ways to communicate a connection other than the five points discussed in these postings.

Someone can:

– Say how they feel, whether over the phone or in person

– Write how they feel, whether on paper or in an email or in a text message

– Show how they feel, whether through physical actions or the things they do.

And the most affected of individuals will:

– Hear what you say

– Read into what you write

– Appreciate what you do for them

A connection only exists when both sides of the bond react to each other. There is always an action and a reaction to moments in time when the affected notes this, eagerly awaiting “The Pat”.

What Your Future Will Be and Why You Will Never Fall

Dreams aren’t always realized from what’s around you or who is around you.  Sometimes you have to make a few tough decisions to get where you want to be.  And sometimes you acquire the encouragement to do so from sources that are both “likely” and “unlikely”, at the same time.

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I was talking with a friend on Yahoo IM late one night a few months ago while sitting on the couch in a relative’s Nittany Lions man cave:

(Note:  He was kind enough to stay up late to talk and this friend knew of my ABDL-mindedness, but not to the extent that I felt it, kept it in my heart and explored it in real life.)

Our conversation:

Him:  “Okay, Nate.  There’s a couple of things I want you to do for me.  I wrote these down so I wouldn’t forget any of them.

#1. Don’t ever again fall in love so much as to be unable to love anyone else.

#2. Don’t ever again want someone so much that you can’t see beyond them.

#3. Don’t ever again give of yourself freely without acquiring something to show for it.

#4. From now on, make completely certain that you (mess) something up every day.  It’s just as important as getting things right.

#5. Don’t ever believe anyone to be that good for you because all females become the exact same woman by the end.  Dream-Come-True’s aren’t reality.”

Me:  “You know I don’t agree with you. You know me a lot better than that.  Not only am I incapable of doing any of those things, even if I were capable, I would refuse to be that way about anything.”

Him:  “I know, but damn you!  It took me a while to come up with that list!  I thought it summed it up pretty good!”

Me:  “Well, it summed something up.  Don’t ask me what.  But maybe part of the process is getting to a point in time when you stop listening to what other people are saying and you remember what you know to be the truth.”

Him:  “And what truth is that?  I gotta hear this.  Put it to words, author boy.  ha ha”

(So I thought about it for a moment before responding.)

Me:  “All right …

#1. Imperfection is mandatory.  So seek it like you do everything else.

#2. Sometimes we’re at our best when we can’t see it about ourselves.

#3. Don’t look for the Dream-Come-True.  Look for the reality which could include it.

#4. Don’t forget what you felt … because there wasn’t anything wrong with it.  

#5. And the one which I think about every day: Smile … because you saw what your future will be.”

Him:  “But look where you are now.” 

Me:  “I know.  But look where I was before.” 

Him:  “Are you sure it didn’t come to you at a cost?” 

Me:  “Sure it did.  In several ways.  But I think I knew from the start that I would either wind up with the Dream-Come-True or with nothing at all.”

Him:   “Right.  Like I said.  LOOK WHERE YOU ARE NOW!!!!”

Me:   “What makes you think I didn’t find the Dream-Come-True?”

Him:  “Oh, you found it did you?”

Me:  “Yes, more so than I’ll ever tell you, Chief.  Maybe it just hasn’t found me yet … But then again, maybe it did all ready.  I guess time will tell.”

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In every stage of life, there is a journey you undetake.  The destination isn’t always clear from the start and it may change along the way, but when you reach the destination, you’ll know it because you’ll know you belong there.  Until you reach the destination, you’ll have so many questions to fill your mind.

But sometimes, without knowing it, something will happen that will make you realize you had the answers within you all along.  It just takes a little “James Bond – Shaken, not Stirred” to make it clearThat, and a few friends along the way who refused to let you fall.

A little ” Moon Aspectin’ “

Some things simply can’t be written.  They just need to fall in line in front of your eyes to spook you at the right moment.

(Of course, then again, I guess someone did have to write this to begin with. But nevertheless…)

My horoscope for the day:

Saturday, October 1, 2011 –

Harmony reigns when the Sun and Moon aspect. Today is creative and fun as you think of interesting things to do together. When the Moon aspects Mercury tonight you  feel what another is thinking. You may even sense that “happily ever after” isn’t just a part of fairy tales.

🙂

No Pants, The Love of Little and The Love of Love

There is something about the sight of a BabyGirl in a diaper with no pants. For as obvious as it would be to say that it just seems right for her to be without pants, there is also the thought that a lack of pants might well guide her heart and her mind into a “little” state. And that thought is endearing to me. Little subtle reminders from her legs being bare and her bottom being diapered.

It also gives you quick access to her skin and there are a plethora of reactions she could give when you trace your fingertips along the lines of her bare legs.

In my past, I recall making the statement that “everything will get better for you if you just take off your pants when you get upset or worried. Try it and you’ll see how cheery you become inside.”

Cheeriness is a commodity we sometimes overlook.  It will make you smile even when frustrated.  I’m not saying that a BabyGirl who takes her pants off and runs around in just a diaper is going to be able to Heal the World, but I’m also not doubting that possibility. 

If you’ve never had the joy of having a BabyGirl to call your own, to love and to care for, then believe me when I tell you that a girl with the love of little and therefore the love of love in her heart is capable of moving a mountain with the breath of a kiss, brightening a room with a simple smile from behind her pacifier, changing any mood with a well-timed giggle, creating friendship with a playful wave of her hand, healing a heart’s scar tissue with the kind of hug only a little girl knows how to give and accomplishing all of these things with the magic touch of her little fingertips while still making it back in time for her afternoon nap.  🙂

All Betters!” as she might say.

The Instant Magic of Feeling Little

Part One: The Five Reallys and the Promise

We pulled into a parking space, and directly in front of us was a bronze statue of a lion.  It wasn’t as big as the one on Penn State Main Campus, but her eyes became glued to it.  She got out of the car, and ran up to it.  I got out of the car, grabbing the diaper bag, and following after her.

She was still as spontaneous and as energetic as the moment I met her five years ago and she was a BabyGirl at heart, always.  Perhaps that’s why I felt the need to frequently take her on little trips like this one, just so she would have the chance to let that little girl out in a setting which would make it an instant and lasting memory for her.

On that day, I took her to the Nittany Lion State Park.  

She walked all around the statue with eyes as big as could be.  “And dats a ninny lion?” she asked.

“Yes, Sweetheart.  There used to be lions just like that one all over this mountain range at one point,” I answered, taking her hand and leading her down the trail.

“Where’d they all go?” she asked innocently.

“Probably away from us, as fast as they could,” I answered.

At the base of the trail was a plaque.  We walked up to it, and I said: “And here it is.  The Legend of Mount Nittany.”

“Read it to me, Daddy,” she asked sweetly as she brought my arms over her shoulders and pressed herself against my body.  “Please?”

“Certainly, Sweetheart,” I replied as I read the word on the plaque:

The Legend of Mount Nittany: Nit-A-Nee, which means ‘single mountain,’ was an Indian maiden whose lover, Lion’s Paw, was killed…

Nit-A-Nee enfolded him into her arms and carried his still erect body back to a place in the center of the Valley where she laid the strong Brave in his grave and built a mound of honor over his strength.

On the last night of the full moon, after she had finally raised the last of the soil and stone over his high mound, a terrible storm came up unleashing itself with thunder and lightning and the wailing of a horrendous wind from the depths of the earth. Every Indian in the Valley shuddered and all eyes were directed to the Indian Brave’s high mound upon which the strong maiden Princess Nit-A-Nee was mounted with arms outstretched to touch the sources of the lightning bolts in the sky.

Through the night they watched with awe as the Indian Brave’s burial mound grew and rose into a Mountain penetrating the center of the big valley between the two legs of the Tussey and Bald Eagle Ridges. When the dawn finally came, a huge Mountain was found standing erect in the center of the Valley.

And that’s all it says. Let’s see where the trail takes us.”

So we started walking up the trail.  I put my hand behind her back, and we skipped a few steps, but I could see she was bored by it.  So I placed my hand on her diapered bottom to “check”.  She looked up at me and a big grin came across her face.  She smashed herself into the side of my body like a shy four-year-old.

“You have no idea what’s ahead of us, do you?” I asked.

She looked ahead, and said: “Trees.”

I let out a laugh at her quick, yet honest answer.

“Yes.  There are a lot of trees,” I stated while still laughing, “But look!”

I stopped and pointed off to the left.

“What’s under those trees?”

Her eyes grew great big and wide once again.  She leapt into my arms, and hugged my neck while exclaiming: “Swings!  Will you push me in one of them?”

“Will you be a good girl and hold on tightly to the swing if I do?” I playfully asked while carrying her over to the swing set.

“Yep!” she cried out while leaping out of my arms and running over to the swing.

I stopped dead in my tracks and put a fat-lipped, sad face on.  She looked back at me, rolled her eyes up in her head, ran back to me, grabbed me by the hand, and ran us back to the swing.

“Come on, Daddy!” she said while laughing.

She jumped into the swing without a moment to lose.

“High. I wanna go really, really, really, really, really high!” she said with excitement.

“How many reallys was that?” I asked.

She counted out the number on her fingers, then showed me her hand.

“Five,” she answered.

“I don’t know,” I said.

“Why? What’s wrong?”

“BabyGirls should never go higher than four reallys. This many,” I said while showing her four fingers.

She touched her left pointer finger to her lip, and went deep into thought.  Then, she thought of a comeback line.  She snapped her fingers when she thought of it.

“But good BabyGirls are allowed to do five reallys high.  And I said I would be good. So five it is,” she answered with sincerity.

“That’s true.  I can’t argue with that,” I said admitting defeat. (-wink-)

Content that she had won, she sat straight up in the swing, grabbed the chains on each side, and readied herself to be pushed.  I grabbed the swing on either side, pulled her way back up high (five reallys high, mind you, not four!), and I let her go.   She swung through the air like a bird.  And with each pass, I heard her laughter increasing.

Her hair fluttered in the wind, and the sun shined through the trees and down over her dress with golden beams.  She was an angel that seemed to have wings all of the sudden.  Her smile, which always lit up her entire face and the room she was in, was now lighting up everything around us.  Her laughter echoed up and down the mountainside.

When I slowed her up, and stopped the swing, I could tell she had been made happy by the experience.  She got off the swing and embraced me.

“I love you Daddy.  I love you so much,” she said.  “Can I have a Coke?”

“You certainly may,” I said while opening the diaper bag.

She reached in, grabbed a Coke, and handed it to me with the most precious ‘Please!’ face in the world.  I smiled, and opened the can.  She grabbed it, chugged the thing right down, and then let out a burp.

“Do you feel better?” I asked as I took the empty can and put it back in the bag.

“Uh-huh,” she responded as we started up the trail.

“You know what’s so wonderful about BabyGirls?” I asked.

She smiled.  “Tell me,” she said.

“They’re emotional.  They just want to be loved.  They want to feel loved and they want to know that they will always be loved.  They want to be taken care of and they never want to feel like they are a burden.  They never are a burden, but they never let a moment go by where they don’t cherish how someone makes them feel.”

She smiled sweetly.

I continued on.

“Her smile makes her beautiful.  Her dimples and tiny nose make her adorable.  Her pigtails make her happy.  Her pacifier makes her comfortable.  Her clothing makes her feel little.  Her bib tells her it’s okay to be messy.  Her crib tells her it’s time to settle down.  Her diaper makes her feel like a baby.  Her stuffed animals surround her and she hugs them all. And her Daddy makes her the happiest BabyGirl in the world.”

She smiled a lot wider and added, “and her Daddy knows best.  She wants to make him happy, too.”

“She does.  Every morning she wakes up, and opens her beautiful eyes and looks at me with a burning love I can’t describe.  She may be a little baby, but her effect is really huge.”

“I don’t ever want to know anything other than the way you make me feel, Daddy.”

“My promise, BabyGirl:  You never will.”

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Part Two: The Shirt off His Back

We walked up to another plaque alongside the trail.

“Your turn to read,” I said as I walked up behind her, wrapped my hands around her, and put my chin on the top of her head.

She put her hands on my arms and leaned her head back on my chest.

“Too many words,” she said.

“Okay,” I said as I began to read the plaque:

Kalmia latifolia, commonly called Mountain-laurel or Spoonwood, is a flowering plant in the family Ericaceae, native to the eastern United States, from southern Maine south to northern Florida, and west to Indiana and Louisiana.

It is an evergreen shrub growing to 3-9 m tall. The leaves are 3-12 cm long and 1-4 cm wide. Its flowers are star-shaped, ranging from red to pink to white, and occurring in clusters. It blooms between May and June. All parts of the plant are poisonous. Roots are fibrous, matted.

The plant is naturally found on rocky slopes and mountainous forest areas. The plant often grows in large thickets, covering large areas of forest floor. In North America it becomes a tree on the mountains of the Carolinas but is a shrub further north.

“Mow-In Florah,” she gibbered out.

I looked around. Nobody was anywhere to be seen. So I decided to get silly.

“Hey, do you wanna see what this park looks like at a really fast speed?” I asked.

“Huh?” she asked, quite bewildered.

I tickled her sides and she howled with laughter until she broke free and began running away from me through the forest. I stood there for a moment, giving her a head start and then bolted after her. I chased her for a while, waiting until we ran through an area without tree cover.

I caught up to her, grabbed her, lifted her in the air and placed her on her back on the ground. While she tried hard to fight me off with her hands, she couldn’t stop laughing long enough to stop me from flipping her dress up and blowing raspberries on her tummy. She kicked her legs up and down, and I eventually let her flip me over on my back.

While sitting on me, she finally had a moment to catch her breath and try to recover from laughing.

“That wasn’t fair,” she laughingly stated in a breathless tone. “”I’m shorter than you and I have sandals on and I’m wearing a diaper and I’m a BabyGirl…”

I sat up, holding her to me, and kissed her very softly and quickly on the lips.

“And I love you for being all of that and so much more.”

We sat there for a moment, gazing into each other’s eyes.

“Do you remember the first time we met?” she asked.

“As if it were yesterday, Princess,” I fondly recalled. “We met at that little coffee shop you loved just on the edge of your hometown. You were so nervous to meet me, but you were beautiful in that dress and your face was even more beautiful than the pictures you sent me. You were a little late and you ran in with serious concern that I had left. I would have stayed there all night, waiting for you. But then we saw each other, and didn’t it feel like the world stopped moving for a second?”

“Yes,” she responded in a tiny voice as she stared deep into my eyes.

“We didn’t say anything at first, did we? No. There weren’t any words that the moment needed or required. I don’t think I could have spoken at that moment anyway. We knew so much about each other that the next step was to meet each other,” he recalled.

“I remember running into your arms and how warm your body felt and how good it felt to be in a Daddy’s arms. I wasn’t nervous after that. I had to meet you to know if I would feel the same as when we spoke, and I did,” she said softly.

I kissed her on the forehead again. Then she got off my chest and lied next to me. We looked up at the early evening sky, but there was still plenty of sunlight left to the day and the clouds were still bright white.

“What do you see in those clouds?” she asked.

“More clouds,” I replied. “How about you? When a girl, with all the love in the world for little things in her heart, looks at those clouds, what does she see?”

I looked over at her. She looked at every cloud in the sky, then spoke: “I see rivers and streams. Lakes and Seas. Oceans and Waterfalls.”

“And rainbows?” I asked softly, knowing why she was saying those things.

She looked back at me with tears in her eyes.

“Yes,” she said very quietly.

“Shh,” I whispered as I wiped a tear from her cheek. “It’s okay. I am always going to take care of you.”

I reached my hand underneath her and found that her dress was soaked. I stood up, unbuttoned my shirt, lifted her to her feet, wrapped the shirt around her waist and we began walking back down the trail.

“Why were you crying?” I asked.

“You’re so kind to me,” she said. “Sometimes it makes me cry.”

She paused for a moment and then continued, “Do you know what’s so wonderful about Daddies?”

“Tell me,” I said.

“They care for you in a way that you never get cared for again for the rest of your life. Their voices are soft and their hands are strong, yet gentle. You can collapse in their arms and they will be there to catch you. You can fall to pieces and they will glue you back together, stronger than before. They make everything that seems like such a big problem seem like a little one and then they fix it so you can forget about it. If you feel grumpy they will make you happy,” she paused for a moment to clear the lump in her throat before continuing. “And if you wet yourself and if by chance you soak your dress in the process, a Daddy will give you the shirt off his back to make you feel better.”

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Part Three: More Than Could Possibly Have Been Imagined

She pressed herself up against my side and put her head on my shoulder as we walked the rest of the pathway back to the car. We were the only ones left in the park as dusk approached. I unlocked the car and opened the back door on the driver’s side. She took a seat and lifted the dress off her body. In a flash, I pulled the extra set of clothes out of her diaper bag, and had the baby-t over her head and on her body.

She layed flat on the back seat. I sat alongside her on the edge, handed her favorite teddy bear to her, put her pacifier in her mouth, and began to unfasten her diaper. In one quick motion, her legs and bottom went up in the air. I wiped her clean and positioned the new diaper under her.

Lowering her back down onto the diaper, I could see from the look on her face that she was feeling very little now. And I obliged what her heart was longing for at that moment.

“You’ve been a very good girl on this trip,” I said with a rich Daddy tone as I fastened her new diaper into place.

She looked at me with wonderment of what I was planning next. Somehow she knew I was up to something. I took the sandals off her feet, and placed them on the floor of the car with her diaper bag. It was time for a heart-pounder of a moment for both of us. For as much as it got our hearts pounding, what I did next was a rush and a thrill and a craving as well.

I picked her up in my arms, lifted her out of the car and carried her over to throw away her wet diaper in the trash can, about 30 feet away.

Being carried like a baby, wearing a baby-t, a disposable diaper, with bare feet and with a pacifier in her mouth, she felt like a baby from the tip of her head to the tip of her toes. Or at least I was lead to believe some from the look of timidness that had formed across her face.

At first, she sat up, looking around to figure out where I was carrying her. Then she became overwhelmed with that baby feeling and she rested her head on my shoulder. She clutched her teddy bear in one arm and reached up with her other hand to cling to the collar of my t-shirt.

I walked slowly, but deliberately to the trash can, depositing her old diaper in it and patting her new diaper for the return trip to the car. She remained clung to my body with a heavily beating heart, but never fussed and never whimpered.

“That’s a good girl,” I said softly to her while making our way back to the car.

She sat up in my arms and smiled brightly behind her pacifier. She began to giggle as I kept trying to touch the tip of her nose with my pointer finger.

I opened the driver’s door, got in the car and laid her down on the front seat with her head in my lap. She looked so happy and relaxed, though she was still recovering from the surprise trip across the parking lot.

“You’ve been a very good girl today,” I said as I covered her body with her blanket. “And Daddy is very proud of you.”

As we drove off, she shifted and lied on her back so she could look straight up at me as I drove.

My thoughts went back to that return trip across the parking lot.

At that moment, she was safe. No one was left in the park, but she didn’t know that. And while not knowing, she reached out for the one thing she needed the most at that moment … her Daddy.

That meant more to me than could possibly have been imagined.

The End

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The Rock-A-Bye Series

   

Thoughts and Other Journeys of the Mind
Short and Sweet Stories
The Stories of Time
Yittlin Extreme

 

The Passion of Emotions and the Indication of Meaning

Perhaps the best emotions are the kinds of emotions you feel.

Not the ones you want to feel, but the ones you actually do feel.

They will drive you to do more than you believed yourself capable of doing. You will love deeply, pursue passionately, defend valiantly, trust fully and accept openly in ways you never would’ve imagined otherwise.

Perhaps the greatest contributor to this is passion.  Regardless of the emotion, whether it’s fear, anger, love, hatred, joy, vengeance, forgiveness, laughter, contentment ….. Passion will make intense that which began as a mere thought.

And if an exhaustion follows each emotion, perhaps that’s an indication that ya just might’ve done something right. You felt the emotion and gave everything you had.

It’s a glorious feeling to know that you gave all you had.
It’s a humbling feeling to know that “all you had” sometimes just isn’t enough to meet someone’s needs.
But it’s a reassuring feeling to know that you will live to do it all again.

On the way out, however, it better hurt like hell to say goodbye to where you’ve been. Because that will be the clearest indication to yourself that whatever it was which first led you down the paths you chose, truly meant something to you and you felt it with a passion that remained.

That Ever-Burning Passion

It’s more tender than a kiss, softer than any touch, more meaningful than sentimental words,   

more powerful than a nicotine fix,

more intoxicating than 4 car bombs – 3 Long Island Iced Teas – and the worm at the bottom of a bottle of tequila,

 

stronger than any orgasm – multiplied or extended, sweeter than Winnie’s honey pot,

 

more stunning than that first sight,

 

 more playful than her littlest moments,

 

more red-handed than that time at the cookie jar,

 

and mightier than a rose.

 

So what is it?

 

 It’s the Dynamic of Love, the Connection of Souls and the Bonding of Hearts between a Daddy and a BabyGirl

 

And it’s more rewarding and fulfilling than anything you can imagine.

It’s not the only thing in life, but feels like it should be. 

The Language of Those Little Details…..

When can you communicate without saying a word?  The answers might be “with your eyes”, “with your hands”, “with a note” …

But how about “with a shifting of the hips or the shoulders”, “with a reaction”, “with a change in behavior”?

I suppose the list could be endless.

When it comes to a BabyGirl, “Little” Details has two meanings because there are two sides to every BabyGirl:  What she feels on the inside and who she is on the outside.

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The first meaning deals with those smaller moments – being the details of when she is little.

Some are obvious, like:

Sitting on a bed, Indian Leg style, while Bouncing means she’s excited.

Curling up in a fetal ball as she sleeps means she’s Dreaming Big about Being Little.

Wandering eyes during a diaper change means she’s either trying to handle the overwhelming feelings of the moment … or her mind is all ready so little that her attention is being drawn to something else on its own.

But some are more subtle:

A Lowered chin, gazing up with widened eyes means she is feeling little.

A Lowered chin, gazing up with widened eyes and a troubled brow means she is feeling little and insecure.

Shying away from favorite activities means she might need a change but doesn’t want to say anything.

Bursting out of the house, holding hands and skipping means her playfulness she can no longer contain.

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The second meaning of “Little” Details – being when she makes gestures or movement that give hints of what she is thinking.  

Her hands over her face means she is embarrassed or overwhelmed, an obvious one.

But some are a bit more subtle:

Staring out or down, rubbing the flat part of her right thumbnail on her bottom lip means she is deep in thought.

“The above” … while rocking back and forth means the thought is intense or little, or both.

“The above” … while smoking means the thought is troubling and she is apprehensive about mentioning it.

Her hands in fists in front of her mouth, sometimes clenching a blanket edge means she is filled with joy or excitement or a moment of blissful decision.

Walking from one room to the next, picking things up and cleaning up as she sways, keeping her arms slightly extended out from her sides means she is keeping herself busy until she remembers what it is that she came downstairs to do.

Pushing the left side of her lower lip out with her tongue while she looks from left to right means she is in multi-tasking mode.

Walking at a fast pace up the stairs, then turning around and running back down the stairs means she has finally remembered what it was that she wanted to do down there.

A Beaming smile with a brightened face which illuminates the entire room means she is feeling Love.

Scrunching up her mouth and raising her eyebrows means she has drawn a conclusion.

Lowering her eyes quickly, exhaling through her nose, running her tongue over her teeth behind closed lips means she is re-evaluating her conclusion.

Smirking with raised eyebrows while nodding slowly means she knows she is right, and she knows you know that she knows she is right.

Wearing sunglasses on a cloudy day means she has a thought she wants to keep to herself.

Wearing sunglasses on a sunny day means she has a thought she wants you to guess at.

From either side of her and from either state of mind, be it Big or Little, there is merit in learning what she is saying without saying a word.  It’s The Language of Those “Little” Details …

The Chemistry of Expression

              

There are many ways to express to someone the emotions and desires of your heart.

Saying how you feel, Writing how you feel & Showing how you feel are just three separate ways to let them know what they mean to you. But there are many other ways to let someone know how you feel. Fate delegates the pursuit in finding someone who shares similar ways of expression.

Perhaps that similarity is a sign of good chemistry.

And through chemistry, friendships, those we cherish and those we appreciate, we discover that what we need is really what we want. Maybe some of that chemistry comes from finding someone who believes in the same things you do.

When you’re able to offer someone what they need, all the difference is made. As individuals, we simply get better at being who we are. From there, everything else grows.

Cherishing Someone and Being Admired – Chemistry for a Lifetime.

That “white-hot” attention

This is another phrase I love to use to describe the intensity of the attention an ABDL Girl receives.

When a flame burns hot enough, it’s orangish color will disappear, leaving a white flame.  This is indicative of a temperature which is much hotter than normal and more intense all around.

Recently, I was asked what the attraction is for a female in “The Daddy’s Girl Fetish”.  The best way I can summarize it is to say that she receives a kind of “white-hot” attention that she normally would not receive in a relationship from … the vanilla realm.  LOL

To put more detail to it, imagine the kind of attention that a little girl receives.  Everybody thinks she is adorable.  Everybody wants to give her a hug.  Everybody wants to see her smile and be happy and care-free.  She is taken care of and protected, for her sweetness and her innocence and for how wonderful she is.  She feels loved.  She feels important and special in everyone’s eyes.

For an adult female, attention still exists and sometimes you can’t get away from the attention.  But it’s a different kind of attention.  Now, people want to get to know her for specific reasons or people want something from her.  She has responsibilities and often times finds herself struggling to maintain an identity which remained so firmly in her youth.

For an adult female, imagine still being an adult but receiving the kind of attention she received when she was a little girl, back when everybody adored her just for being who she was.

The Daddy/BabyGirl dynamic reacquaints her with the feelings of being a little girl while within the ageplay setting of ABDL.  Her adult side and her little side are cared for and nurtured.

That “white-hot” attention.